FACE LIFT!
I've given my blog a new name with a new aim for 2011. Last year I resolutioned (yeah, I made up a word, I know) that I would blog once a week. Never happened. as with all resolutions it went the way of the Dodo. I'm not deluded into thinking I was too busy. This is evidenced by the 3 hours I spent on my ass on the chair with the laptop on my lap mucking about and watching "TV" most evenings. As I mentioned in yesterdays post one of my New Years Resolutions - NYR's is to write more. Part of that is to try and keep my fingers and mind nimble, but mostly it's because I know I spend time with myself then. 20 minutes is just a really manageable chunk of time. I'm not sure what will come out of 20 minutes of writing. I hope good things. Baby steps to move me towards living the potential of my life. Not being afraid. Being responsible. Facing why I am here and how I turn things around.
***I would like to note here that I think I have a wonderful life. I just know there is so much more I could be doing.***
So today I did battle with the grocery store. Wicked place to be sometimes. I went hungry which was dumb, but I didn't do stupid. Didn't cave to the candy bar at the check out. That is a small victory. Woot!
Also, my dear friend Shelley gave me this amazing recipe book called "Love Soup" And I made two recipes from it today. A black bean soup that was amazing, and corn bread. Yummy. Thanks Shel. I think I'm gonna try a recipe a week. I am hoping to duplicate this mushroom soup I had at the pub down the street from my office. Dreams were built on this mushroom soup.
Mmmmm Soup!
Night all.
Hey, if you are reading this, say Hi. I'd love to know who is taking a peek.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Happy 2011
Bonne Année
I was thinking about all the years I have made New Years Resolutions (NYR), I have even gone so far as to call the revolutions for the past few years. As I thought about what it was I would like to commit myself to for the next year I began to think about my relationship with the NYR. Calling them revolutions now seems a bit much (I am often trying to hard to be profound and end up just being a bit of a ass and sounding/feeling fake). Not to mention it adding unnecessary pressure to an already improbable situation. So then I began thinking about how I change my relationship with the NYR. We create these lofty and impractical goals most of the time and then blow it all to hell in what? A month if we are lucky. And what are most of our NYR's about? Physical personal perfection and the impossible attempts to attain it. I wonder how many of us realize that we are chasing something that doesn't even exist. In fact, I only just realized that as I wrote it. This NYR isn't about being healthy for most of us, not really. It's about appearing healthy.
Okay, maybe that isn't fair and I shouldn't talk about it like I am speaking for everyone. So. I put lose weight on my list every year. Even when I looked like I wish I did now. That line item has nothing to do with health, nothing at all. I want to lose weight so I look better. So my clothes fit better so I can shop in more stores, and so I can feel sexier. Not one thought goes into why or how I might do it to be healthier, treat my body with respect and model good habits for my children. My resolutions are almost exclusively appearance driven. How do I look to others, how do I seem to others, do I sound intelligent?
Interestingly, (to me anyway) not one single person who actually matters to me has ever made me feel like I am anything less then beautiful, smart, capable, sexy and 100% acceptable in the package I currently come in.
I would like to pause here - Thank You. from the bottom of my soul, thank you.
Okay with that said I am aiming to make intelligent New Years Resolutions for 2011. I thought categories might help. I am generally a 12 point NYR maker so categories isn't odd, to me anyway.
My Health and Well Being:
Take the kids and go for walks often.
Take enough to eat the first time I fill my plate, eat slowly, chew thoroughly, and take the time to enjoy the meal.
If it is made out of garbage it belongs in the garbage, not in my mouth.
Eat breakfast at home.
Get up in time to stretch in the morning and make time to do it at night.
Go to bed earlier
Have more sex
My Mental Welfare:
Go to bed earlier
Go for walks alone without an iPod and let your brain work.
Write more; blog, letters (love and friendship), for myself.
Take more deep breaths and yell less
Listen more
With that in mind and more percolating it is midnight and in order to assist in the following my NYR's. Good night.
I was thinking about all the years I have made New Years Resolutions (NYR), I have even gone so far as to call the revolutions for the past few years. As I thought about what it was I would like to commit myself to for the next year I began to think about my relationship with the NYR. Calling them revolutions now seems a bit much (I am often trying to hard to be profound and end up just being a bit of a ass and sounding/feeling fake). Not to mention it adding unnecessary pressure to an already improbable situation. So then I began thinking about how I change my relationship with the NYR. We create these lofty and impractical goals most of the time and then blow it all to hell in what? A month if we are lucky. And what are most of our NYR's about? Physical personal perfection and the impossible attempts to attain it. I wonder how many of us realize that we are chasing something that doesn't even exist. In fact, I only just realized that as I wrote it. This NYR isn't about being healthy for most of us, not really. It's about appearing healthy.
Okay, maybe that isn't fair and I shouldn't talk about it like I am speaking for everyone. So. I put lose weight on my list every year. Even when I looked like I wish I did now. That line item has nothing to do with health, nothing at all. I want to lose weight so I look better. So my clothes fit better so I can shop in more stores, and so I can feel sexier. Not one thought goes into why or how I might do it to be healthier, treat my body with respect and model good habits for my children. My resolutions are almost exclusively appearance driven. How do I look to others, how do I seem to others, do I sound intelligent?
Interestingly, (to me anyway) not one single person who actually matters to me has ever made me feel like I am anything less then beautiful, smart, capable, sexy and 100% acceptable in the package I currently come in.
I would like to pause here - Thank You. from the bottom of my soul, thank you.
Okay with that said I am aiming to make intelligent New Years Resolutions for 2011. I thought categories might help. I am generally a 12 point NYR maker so categories isn't odd, to me anyway.
My Health and Well Being:
Take the kids and go for walks often.
Take enough to eat the first time I fill my plate, eat slowly, chew thoroughly, and take the time to enjoy the meal.
If it is made out of garbage it belongs in the garbage, not in my mouth.
Eat breakfast at home.
Get up in time to stretch in the morning and make time to do it at night.
Go to bed earlier
Have more sex
My Mental Welfare:
Go to bed earlier
Go for walks alone without an iPod and let your brain work.
Write more; blog, letters (love and friendship), for myself.
Take more deep breaths and yell less
Listen more
With that in mind and more percolating it is midnight and in order to assist in the following my NYR's. Good night.
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