Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Deets on the Letter

Okay the letter must contain:

A request to be considered an inquirer and to beging the Discernment process.
A bit about my connection to the church.
Why I am looking at becoming a Minister. (Keeping it simple)
Closing

This is Michelle's advice.

The post isn't really a letter, I guess I wasn't very clear about that. I have never articulated my journey to this place in any way before so I figured the best way to get to a letter was to first put this stuff down on 'paper'.

I am completely in love with all of you who wrote to me, on the blog and personally. You are all so amazing and I could not ask for a better group of people to call friends. I would like to take a second to publicly acknowledge some of my best and brightest.

Sim - You rock my world and challenge my complacency. Thanks for that. I love you.

Heather - Your friendship makes it easy for me to be myself. Not something I am always comfortable being. I love you

Lisa - I will never share with another girlfriend the things we have shared. I miss you so much. I love you

Nicole - Nobody else makes me want to sing the way you do. (Or understands why I like country music). And no one has ever forced me to find my voice the way you have. I love you

Shelley - My Mommy Buddy. Our play dates are such a relief to me, you make me feel normal (a precious gift) I wish we were closer so it could be more often. I'll be back soon. I love you.

Jenny Benny - My lovely lovely spirited friend. You are so much more than anyone really knows. Thank you for sharing some of that with me. I love you

Marie - My editor. You must cringe every time you read an unedited blog post. I so wish that this distance between us would disappear. Yet I know when the need is there we will reach for each other again. I love you

Jenn K - A chat with you never fails to lift me up and allow me to breathe deeply. You are a cherished soul to me. I love you

Sandra - Your spirit and drive are inspiring. Thank you for letting me in. I love you.

Michelle - You are still new to me, but already you are inspiring me to reach for some stars that I had placed out of reach.

Allie - You keep me young, remind me how that was and why not being in my 20's is fantastic. That might sound weird, but I value that so much. Love you

Anna - I will never forget what you did for me when I was in hospital with Liam. You are a wonderful woman and I so look forward to seeing what comes next for you in your life. I know you will face that with all that makes you so special. I love you.

My Love - I can not truly express what you have done for me in my life. 14 years of friendship, 13 years of relationship and 7 years of marriage to a headcase like me. I think you might be sainted. In seriousness though, you stayed by me while I was an insecure mess (trust me, I was way worse). You stayed though I lied and hurt you, and you forgave me, lesser men would have fled. You challenge me everyday to be better. You chose me as your forever and helped me create two of the most amazing people, our children. You love me even when I hate myself. You encourage me. And so even though you are not always here you are my heart. You are what has allowed me to come to this point and to be able to continue on from here. I am still, so into you.


I also would like to slightly amend something I said.
There are times, especially since my mother-in-law passed away this past October, that the support and friendship I receive on Sunday is all I get for the week. And often it is enough to sustain me. Friends are busy, family far away, husband out of town. Church, as it has always been, is there for me, building me up.

I did not mean that my friends, family and Love do not support me. They do, they so do. I guess I mean that there are times when I am needy and their lives and priorities are not all about me. Shocking I know. In those times when I am in need of a lift and everyone else is living their own lives (again, how dare they!) the church is always there. I expect it to be, that is it's purpose.

Hope that helps

Love
Be

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