Just me writing it down as it comes to me. Uncensored and barely edited, much to my husbands dismay. This is how my brain works, won't you come along for the ride. It might be fun.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Moi
I woke up.
Made peace with my body for today and actually - like myself - today.
I am all about this, and think it is a good idea for everyone.
I used to really loathe my body, no matter what weight I was at. But one day I woke up and realized that the life I loved, all the things I do, all of it is made possible by my body's compliance. My body gets me through the day - it lets me go to work, go to school, volunteer, all kinds of things.
I realized that I had been viewing my body as an obstacle to the ideal life I always wanted. Finally seeing that it was my body that actually gave me the life I already had, a life I loved despite its petty annoyances ... that is what let me feel so much better about my body.
All of a sudden I didn't feel like we were separate entities in constant battle. Instead I felt like we were tennis partners, working and moving together towards a common goal. A goal I was lucky enough to be able to set without having to ask for too much input.
I wish that feeling for you, Beki. I wish you to feel like your body is your partner that helps you, cradles you, carries you through life because it loves you. I wish you felt that every day, not just today.
But everything starts one day at a time. And for you feeling that on this day, I am really grateful. And really happy.
I am all about this, and think it is a good idea for everyone.
ReplyDeleteI used to really loathe my body, no matter what weight I was at. But one day I woke up and realized that the life I loved, all the things I do, all of it is made possible by my body's compliance. My body gets me through the day - it lets me go to work, go to school, volunteer, all kinds of things.
I realized that I had been viewing my body as an obstacle to the ideal life I always wanted. Finally seeing that it was my body that actually gave me the life I already had, a life I loved despite its petty annoyances ... that is what let me feel so much better about my body.
All of a sudden I didn't feel like we were separate entities in constant battle. Instead I felt like we were tennis partners, working and moving together towards a common goal. A goal I was lucky enough to be able to set without having to ask for too much input.
I wish that feeling for you, Beki. I wish you to feel like your body is your partner that helps you, cradles you, carries you through life because it loves you. I wish you felt that every day, not just today.
But everything starts one day at a time. And for you feeling that on this day, I am really grateful. And really happy.
s.