I chose

Although She doesn't respond so as you all can read it my dear girl H has almost always written me a reply to my posts. This last time she pointed out to me that what I really write about is choice.

She is not wrong. The thing that disappoints me the most about myself is really the choices I make. I make ones that do not advance my life, enhance my life. It's not universally true, nothing is, but it is overwhelmingly true. I have equipped myself with all the tools I need to make the right decisions the majority of the time. Then I left them in the leaky tool shed in the back and they are all rusty. I do take them out, scrub them down, and polish them up from time to time, but then they end up back in the shed.

I find it curious that these choices that I make are not even always the 'easy way out'. Often they make things harder.

~ I eat out too much and that puts a strain on my finances, our finances.
~ I stay up late and therefore I sleep late and then rush about to get where I need to be, I am short with my children and I eat poorly. I don't get in the exercise I want either, all because I stay up too late.
~ I eat poorly and that keeps me fat.
~ I watch too much TV and that is making me stupid.

You see where I am going. So why do it? I know how amazing it is to feel like you've done the right thing for your life. The hike instead of the latte. The veggie brekkie instead of the honeycomb. You feel so alive when the choice is right. SOOOO good.

So today (it's 12:13am) I choose the better choice. The choice that reminds me to love myself.

I chose me.
Please join me and make that choice to commit to yourself too.

Much Love
Be