The fear of farting

A little gross please be warned. I tried to be discreet but honest.


It's the end of day 3 and I am tired and want to sleep. I did promise to keep thee up to date though so here I is.

My headache has relinquished its hold on me in exchange for a complete intestinal clean out. It is truly revolting, smelly and at this point my butt is getting a little, well, burnt. So, I either have a really weird bug that only effects my intestinal tract, or my body was craving a good clean out. Disgusting.

On the other hand I could sleep for days. So, you know, that's a good thing?

I do however feel lighter. My tummy feels like almost nothing is going on in there (if you don't count the painful, get the old crap - tee hee - out of me cramps) which is a huge change from the ugh I feel normally. The thing about that is, that I didn't really notice my tummy felt bloated and puffy and full until the feeling went away.

I also am noticing a shift in how stuffy I am in the morning. Yay that.

So today I ate:

Brekkie: PJ & B rice cakes and blueberries
Lunch: Hot and sour soup and veggie fresh rolls
Supper: Potato wedges (totally felt like I was scarfing down candy) salad and hummus.

I also am now trying to focus on c h e w i n g my food. Which it has become evident to me, I don't do at the moment.

I have been thinking about the shift I am trying to make in my habits and addictions. I have been eating for so long, but I am not really feeding myself. I hadn't really thought that there might be a difference, but there really is. Eating requires little thought or care. No attention to what or how much or why you are putting food in your mouth . . .

bathroom break

. . . is required when you eat. Feeding yourself is different. Yes yes, I know they technically mean the same thing, but think about it. When you feed something or someone, you are caring for it. Your child, your pet, friends and family at the diner table, you feed them, caring about what you prepare. So why not do that for yourself too. Everyday, instead of just eating, be conscious about it and feed yourself instead.

This cleanse really forces you to think before you eat. You can't just grab something. Each food choice has to be thought out and carefully selected. My body deserves that.

Night
Love
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